[Intro]
[Verse 1]
Self-love’s addictive
But I’ve been severely deficient,
Avoiding a check-up
For the past few years
Changed perspectives
Not sure what I expected
Each time I look in the mirror
If not feelings of shame
[Chorus]
Know I’ve reached my limit
And I’m my greatest cynic
But I miss
Loving you
Know my heart’s not in it
And all I can do is mimic
Cause I miss
Being you
[Verse 2]
There’s nothing new in what I’m going through
But these days I’m feeling detached from you
And though I feel you deserve good things
I can’t extend them to me too
[Pre-Chorus]
I’ve been hard on myself lately
And I’m the only one who can hate me
As much as I do
Think I gave up long ago to build myself up for you
[Chorus]
Know I’ve reached my limit
And I’m my greatest cynic
But I miss
Loving you
Know my heart’s not in it
And all I can do is mimic
Cause I miss
Being you
[Chorus]
Know I’ve reached my limit
And I’m my greatest cynic
But I miss
Loving you
Know my heart’s not in it
And all I can do is mimic
Cause I miss
Being you
inspiration
Written to producer onedonavelo “Reflections”. I do not own any rights to “Reflections”.
mood
And though I feel you deserve good things
I can’t extend them to me too
spoke word (demo)
Being You_demo take 1
[Hook]
Kicking up dust
No one else to trust
But at the end of the line
I’ll find myself
[Verse 1]
No path is the same
So, I let you make a lane for us
Was it for the passion or for the control?
Or because back then I didn’t know
Who I was and what she meant
Bet you could clearly see
Ahead of me
Made an awful trip paradise
And I always paid the price
[Hook]
Kicking up dust
No one else to trust
But at the end of the line
I’ll find myself
On the other side
[Verse 2]
Took appearances and shiny chains
Even when they broke easily
Took cheap thrills and sweet lies
Until they exposed me
Had to climb out of my own dark hole
The one you dug for me
But it was daybreak
That set me back on the right path
I’ll never forget that
[Bridge]
I wanted to be us
Even when you crowded my peace
Had to look in other directions
Accepting that meant being lost
Knew the truth would be painful
But I had to handle the cost
Knew I had to
Leave us behind
Leave her behind
Leave that girl behind
[Hook]
Kicking up dust
No one else to trust
But at the end of the line
I’ll find myself
On the other side
[Outro]
Kicking up dust
No one else to trust
But at the end of the line
I’ll find myself
I’ll find myself
I’ll find myself
Without you
mood
Had to climb out of my own dark hole
The one you dug for me
spoke word (demo)
Find Myself_demo take 1
[Intro]
[Verse 1]
Tell me
Do you feel it?
A type of mood that’s got you feindin’
To put up all your worries in the backdrop
The air’s electric
The sun hasn’t even set yet
But we’re going through the motions
Like we haven’t just met
[Pre-Chorus]
Baby, let it go
Let it go
The stress that’s in your shoulders
Hold me close
All you need to do is hold me close
And lose yourself in the moment
[Chorus]
Positive vibrations
Orbital resonance
You’re pulled in by the sway of my hips
We’re caught in a high
And I’m not leaving tonight
Consider me charmed,
Beautiful stranger
[Verse 2]
Love your aesthetic
You’re afraid to get wet
But there’s no room for prim and proper
On the dancefloor
I don’t mind if you miss a step
It’s cute if you’re inexperienced
You’ve got an excuse to hold my attention
A little longer
[Chorus]
Positive vibrations
Orbital resonance
You’re pulled in by the sway of my hips
We’re caught in a high
And I’m not leaving tonight
Consider me charmed,
Beautiful stranger
[Bridge]
Beautiful stranger
You’ve only got me for this moment
Beautiful stranger
I can tell I’ve got you hypnotized
[Chorus]
Positive vibrations
Orbital resonance
You’re pulled in by the sway of my hips
We’re caught in a high
And I’m not leaving tonight
Consider me charmed,
Beautiful stranger
[Outro]
Positive vibrations
Orbital resonance
You’re pulled in by the sway of my hips
inspiration
Written to producer onedonavelo ” Energy”. I do not own any rights to “Energy.”
mood
The air’s electric
The sun hasn’t even set yet
But we’re going through the motions
Like we haven’t just met
spoke word (demo)
Beautiful Stranger_demo take 1
[Intro]
[Verse 1]
Purple halos, halos
Streaming through my bohemian curtains
It’s another Sunday morning
Spent it getting rest instead of ready for worship
[Chorus]
Been coasting on the wayside
Can’t see
Where this journey will lead me, but
Life flows
In the most mysterious directions
I’ve learned
To let her currents guide me
[Verse 2]
Like unsteady waters, I’m restless
Carrying a weight on my shoulders, I’m afflicted
I struggle to see how this is all by design
The lows and the highs
I barely sort out on night drives
[Chorus]
Been coasting on the wayside
Can’t see
Where this journey will lead me, but
Life flows
In the most mysterious directions
I’ve learned
To let her currents guide me
[Chorus]
Don’t know where I’m going next, but
I’ve learned
To put my trust in the process
inspiration
Written to producer onedonavelo “Heal”. I do not own any rights to “Heal.”
mood
Been coasting on the wayside
Can’t see
Where this journey will lead me
spoke word (demo)
Trust the Process_demo take 1
[Intro]
[Verse 1]
Sweet nothings and chocolates
A hundred kisses down your neck
Those are signs of something wonderful
Someone who keeps you in check
Holds you down when you’re a wreck
They’re all things I’ll never know
[Chorus]
Feelings that I suppress
Fleeting thoughts of things intimate
But deep down I know I’m
Incompatible
Never been someone’s first pick
But I’ve never been desperate
‘Cause deep down I know I’m
Undesirable
[Verse 2]
Thinking about those days when we played MASH
More entertained by the game than a future that’s been mixed matched
Maybe I loved the thought of finally being the catch
Or escaping the present I lived in, detached
If I passed today, wouldn’t be something I regret
Can’t say missing out makes me upset, it’s just that —
Lately, I’ve been yearning something
Undeniable
[Chorus]
Feelings that I suppress
Craving something that’s intimate
But deep down I know I’m
Incompatible
Never been someone’s first pick
But I’ve never been desperate
‘Cause deep down I know I’m
Undesirable
[Outro]
Undesirable
inspiration
Written to producer onedonavelo “Intellect”. I do not own any rights to “Intellect”.
mood
Never been someone’s first pick
But I’ve never been desperate
‘Cause deep down I know I’m
Undesirable
spoke word (demo)
Undesirable_demo take 1
[Intro]
[Verse 1]
You and I, we just connect
Knew the moment our eyes met
It’s a once in a life chance
To risk it all for what feels right
All the warning signs ahead
We’ll ignore like terms and service
Cause I know we’re feeling nervous
To read between the lines
[Chorus]
I was never that charming
And my jokes never landed
But there was something in the way you smiled
That soothed my stress
Even though were not always aligned
There’s no doubt in my mind
The day you pull me aside and kneel
I’ll say yes
[Verse 2]
Know we started out as friends,
Worried about how this could end
But I can’t help that I fell
With the way you dot your Is
When’d we stop playing pretend?
Was it on that May weekend?
The moment everyone fell asleep
All we could is stare into each other’s eyes
[Chorus]
I was never that charming
And my jokes never landed
But there was something in the way you smiled
To soothe my stress
Even though were not always aligned
There’s no doubt in my mind
The day you pull me aside and kneel
I’ll say yes
[Chorus]
I’m not that charming
And my jokes rarely land
But there’s something in the way you smile
That makes me want to take the next step
Even though were not always aligned
There’s no doubt in my mind
The moment you pull me aside and kneel
I’ll say yes
inspiration
Written to producer onedonavelo “Living Room 2”. I do not own any rights to “Living Room 2”.
mood
Even though were not always aligned
There’s no doubt in my mind
The moment you pull me aside and kneel
I’ll say yes
spoke word (demo)
The Next Step_demo take 1
[Intro]
[Verse 1]
My father once told me
About a mango tree
That suddenly grew money
A neighborhood kid
Had been gone for hours
He told him to stand watch,
Safeguard suspicious earnings
Under the Ghana sun,
Watching a scrimmage go on,
My father kept his promise
The boy returned to grab his pack
And in the days that passed,
My father learned he would spend it all on his precious mother
[Chorus]
There are plenty fortunes people haven’t touched in their lives
A lover unpursued or the job of a lifetime
Don’t let bitterness be an excuse to rot from the inside
A mango isn’t sweet for you
That’s just the way it grows
[Verse 2]
I’ve been selfish
Putting myself first
It became a form of escapism
That I call self-care
Been in the clouds for
Too long
Missing the feeling of
Being strong
I let the smallest things get skin-deep
Know I’m due for some humbling
Each time my father catches me grumbling
About the petty things I complain about
As far as he’s concerned
I’m well-fed and well-learned
So, he takes a moment to bring me back to earth
[Chorus]
There are plenty fortunes people haven’t touched in their lives
A lover unpursued or the job of a lifetime
Don’t let bitterness be an excuse to rot from the inside
A mango isn’t sweet for you
That’s just the way it grows
[Chorus]
There are plenty fortunes people haven’t touched in their lives
A lover unpursued or the job of a lifetime
Don’t let bitterness be an excuse to rot from the inside
A mango isn’t sweet for you
That’s just the way it grows
[Bridge]
So, give yourself time to grow
[Outro]
inspiration
Written to producer onedonavelo ” Energy”. I do not own any rights to “Energy.”
mood
Don’t let bitterness be an excuse to rot from the inside
A mango isn’t sweet for you
That’s just the way it grows
spoke word (demo)
Words of Wisdom from a Father_demo take 1
[Verse 1]
I remember when I promised myself
To take the world by storm
And always try my best
Thought meditating would have an effect, but
Only dissociating lays my thoughts to rest
Not good with words
But poetry
Has been cathartic
I never thought that
A little melody
Would be the spark of joy
In my life
[Pre-Chorus]
Hoping that with time
I’ll be alright
[Chorus]
All my faults and regrets
Remind me
That I have more life to live
It’s likely
What I’m searching for I’ll never find
In the places I go and the company I keep
I’ve been hoping for a reset
Is that possible?
Am I even a good person?
Redeemable?
With all that being said
Maybe it’s time to take it slow
I’m getting over my head
[Verse 2]
Used to be an open book
A diary
Now I overshare, overcompensate
I can’t relate
Struggling to find the meaning in bonding with others
Everyday I’m a bit more disconnected
From myself
But I keep holding on for better things
[Pre-Chorus]
Hoping that with time
I’ll be alright
[Chorus]
All my faults and regrets
Remind me
That I have more life to live
It’s likely
What I’m searching for I’ll never find
In the places I go and the company I keep
I’ve been hoping for a reset
Is that possible?
Am I even a good person?
Redeemable?
With all that being said
Maybe it’s time to take it slow
I’m getting over my head
[Outro]
inspiration
Written to producer onedonavelo “Doing my best”. I do not own any rights to “Doing my best.”
mood
I’ve been hoping for a reset
Is that possible?
Am I even a good person?
Redeemable?