[Verse 1]
Away, so far away
I’ve fallen through a broken glass
Framing a pitiful melancholy
Which paints my face
Why does this fear that grips me
Refuse the slightest mercy?
Choosing to outlive its stay
The longest winter
[Pre-Chorus]
A bow pulled to the highest tension
Fingertips red, I’m gripping desperately
Waiting for release
[Chorus]
Submerged in a haunting cold
Feeling everything and nothing at all
Miles away from the closest shore
Surrounded by a distant ringing
No one else hears
[Verse 2]
Weary, I’m veering
Off an endless road
That swallows me whole
Heavier than a thousand feathers
I’m indisposed and strained
On the precipice of a forced breath
When I finally let go
I’m back at the edge of misty shores,
Undertow
[Pre-Chorus]
A bow pulled to the highest tension
Fingertips red, I’m gripping desperately
Waiting for release
[Chorus]
Submerged in a breathless cold
Feeling everything and nothing at all
Miles away from the closest shore
Surrounded by a distant ringing
No one else can hear
[Bridge]
Is that me?
Am I speaking?
Or is that the heart in my chest,
Beating its final breath,
To the sway of the ferryman’s oar?
Is that me?
When I’d grow so full of contempt?
Looking back through glassy eyes
A sullen guise
Is all I can leave
[Interlude]
[Outro]
Don’t leave me
Don’t leave me
Don’t leave me
Scrambling for the pieces of my fragile mind
Mind
Mind
Mind
Mind.
dissociation ref mix
Performed by: Carolina Padron.
I am not receiving compensation for this! Just giving a shout out for an appreciation of the craft.
mood
Don’t leave me
Scrambling for the pieces of my fragile mind
spoken word (demo)
Dissociation_demo take 1
[Intro]
Knew all was lost
When I realized, distraught,
I lost passion for my dreams
And every night and every day
I cycled through one thought:
I’m untangling at the seams
[Verse 1]
Lost connections
But not the desperation
To long and belong
Just the desire to love, be loved, and tolerate living
Faced with this impediment,
I abandoned all hope at the bottom of a cup with sediment
[Chorus]
I no longer trust myself to love myself
The proof is in the chipped paint
Of my worn temple walls
But I don’t regret the holes I’ve made
As painful as they were
To make
[Verse 2]
When I woke at rock bottom
I savored the freedom, not the cage
So, I ran with my fears, breathless
Until I emerged from that sunken hole
I climbed from it with shadows comforting my soul,
Embracing me like cloth,
From my shoulders to my wrists,
Protecting earthly treasures from moths
[Bridge]
Though I’ve fallen out of love with many things,
With much more to condemn,
The sun will never be one of them
Because with or without any skin to bear in offering
Her warmth is unconditional
[Chorus]
I no longer trust myself to love myself
The proof is in the chipped paint
Of my worn temple walls
But I don’t regret the holes I’ve made
As painful as they were
To make
As painful as they were to make
As painful as they were
To make
mood
I don’t regret the holes I’ve made
As painful as they were
To make
spoken word (demo)
Black Turtle Neck_demo take 1
[Verse 1]
Another day in my head
Fending off familiar voices
What can I say?
I’m such a mess
Choking on regrettable choices
There’s only one life to live
So, why’s it feel like I’m living a million lifetimes?
Maybe there’s more beyond this
But I think I’ve finally reached the end of the line
[Pre-Chorus]
Can I not catch a breath?
Caught in the insanity
Of this day and the next
It all feels a little less complex
With the love of a warm family
Even if I don’t deserve them
Lilies and red roses
I know the dead
Will always have been perfect
[Chorus]
What tricky tragedy
Who are you kidding?
Each day’s another upset
Walking the hottest coals
Has gotta be easier than this
Alone in these thoughts
In a lonelier world
Begging for another life
Call me ungrateful and I’ll say “So, what?
Told that life’s worth living
But is it worth it?
Truly?”
[Verse 2]
Count the minutes
Makes each second tick a little faster
Don’t dwell in it
Hate to keep my head up but I’ve gotta avoid disaster
Or fall in it
Looking for the truth
That’s always been around
Through a mirror,
Staring at a world that’s upside down
Reflecting all the things I hate about myself
[Pre-Chorus]
Can I not catch a breath?
Caught in the insanity
Of this day and the next
It all feels a little less complex
With the love of a warm family
Even if I don’t deserve them
Lilies and red roses
I know the dead
Will always have been perfect
[Chorus]
What tricky tragedy
Who are you kidding?
Each day’s another upset
Walking the hottest coals
Has gotta be easier than this
Alone in these thoughts
In a lonelier world
Begging for another life
Call me ungrateful and I’ll say, “So, what?
Told that life’s worth living
But is it worth it?
Tell me.”
[Bridge]
Remember to capture the better moments
Frame by frame
There’s always a brighter horizon
Even if it might rain
Guess there’s never sunshine without a little strife
The precious gift of life
Can’t take her for granted
No matter where you’ve been stranded
[Interlude, Instrumental]
[Chorus]
What tricky tragedy
Who am I kidding?
Tomorrow will always be a gamble at best
And “It’ll all be worth it.”
So, they say
Am I the only one who begs
For another chance
Or none at all?
Call me ungrateful, all you want
Call me ungrateful, all you want!
Call me ungrateful and I’ll ask, “So what?
How can a painful life best lived beat the alternative?”
[Outro, Instrumental]
mood
What tricky tragedy
Who am I kidding?
Tomorrow will always be a gamble at best
spoken word (demo)
Lilies and Red Roses_demo take 1
[Verse 1]
Never said things would get better
Never hoped on forever, but
There’s been a little dread in me
That we’re the best we’ll ever be
Found myself pacing more often
Your reassurances still soften
The barbs that coil my heart
Scared it’s all a farse, this peace
[Pre-Chorus]
Let’s hide it all in empty promises
Leave our worries to wallow,
Ignore our regrets
There’s no telling
When things will get better
Here’s to hoping they might
A blind optimist’s delight
[Chorus]
Blue skies
And the rising sun,
I aways count on them
So, I still count on us
Soul ties
And aligned moon signs,
I believe in them
So, I still believe in us
[Verse 2]
Do you want to stay the same?
A perfect couple in a perfect frame
Whispering white lies and grey platitudes
Maybe that’s worth protecting
Imagine us in a Hollywood scene
A picket fence and beautiful kids
Or in a van coasting along the Pacific
You’re my home worth sheltering
[Interlude]
Oh
Oh
Oh
[Refrain]
Could you hold me all the same?
Would you let us stay the same?
Would you love me all the same?
Do you want to stay the same?
Could you hold me all the same?
Would you let us stay the same?
Would you love me all the same?
Do you want to stay the same?
Could you hold me all the same?
Would you let us stay the same?
Would you love me all the same?
Do you want to stay the same?
[Outro]
Forever and a day from today?
inspiration
Written to a portion (around the first minute) of Goniyi’s unreleased song, currently labeled “122.” I do not own any rights to “122”.
Performed by: Jettyvibes.
I am not receiving compensation for this! Just giving a shout out for an appreciation of the craft.
mood
Blue skies
And the rising sun,
I aways count on them
So, I still count on us
spoken word (demo)
Forever and a Day_demo take 1
[Verse 1]
When I’m feeling most numb,
Sleep no longer offers solace,
And I’ve lost meaning in all I once loved
I gaze at the ceiling, curtains drawn
[Pre-Chorus]
I find comfort in the night
And despite my fear of her
I never wander towards the light
Perhaps I’m inviting the worst of her
To hide the worst of me
[Chorus]
Another second towards dawn
Is another second I want to be gone
The peace of that thought alone
Makes it easier to close my eyes
Forever, under dark skies
[Refrain]
Skies
Skies
Skies
I find comfort in the night
[Verse 2]
It’s been so long since I’ve felt alright
I need a peace granted without spite
I’ve shed my burdens one final time
Ready to leave it all behind
[Pre-Chorus]
I find comfort in the night
And despite my fear of her
I never wander towards the light
Perhaps I’m inviting the worst of her
To hide the worst of me
[Chorus]
Another second towards dawn
Is another second I want to be gone
The peace of that thought alone
Makes it easier to close my eyes
Forever, under dark skies
[Outro]
I pray to be gone tonight
inspiration
Written to my head is empty’s “numb”. I do not own any rights to “numb”. The current version of this poem/lyrics doesn’t quite match the song’s melody anymore.
mood
I pray to be gone tonight
spoken word (demo)
cover_demo take 1
[Intro]
[Verse 1]
Tuned into ghost frequencies playing on the radio
White noise or static, I’ve been manic
Can’t tell if they’re real or not
I’ve got a scenic backdrop
The next exit’s my last stop
At least saying goodbye will be romantic
[Pre-Chorus]
All that I’ve known
Is out the window
My future is set
Highway hypnosis
Up the ante
We’re locked in limbo
It’s all or nothing
Before I refocus
[Chorus]
Wind flows through my distressed crop top
I’m sky high and I don’t want to stop
From fear or for freedom
I’ve my lost grip and
I’m spiraling
I’m flying
I’m crying
Think I broke out the cycle
That bound me
And trapped me
Insanity
Expecting the same again
[Verse 2]
And again
There’s that buzzing in my head
I’ve got messages I’ve left unread
But I’ve settled with the things I’ve left unsaid
Cheer up babe
You’re on a path well traveled
Foot on the brake
Your destination’s decided
We’re on the brink of a new discovery
It’ll all be fine
If it’s just you and I
[Pre-Chorus]
All that we’ve known
Is out the window
Our future is set
Highway hypnosis
Up the ante
Locked in limbo
It’s all or nothing
Before you refocus
[Chorus]
Wind flows through my distressed crop top
I’m sky high and I don’t want to stop
From fear or for freedom
I’ve my lost grip and
I’m spiraling
I’m flying
I’m crying
Think I broke out the cycle
That bound me
And trapped me
Insanity
Expecting the same again
[Bridge]
If I could turn down the radio
Maybe then I’d know
If these feelings were honest
If I could turn down the radio
I’d ask myself if I was dishonest
About this escape I’ve been looking for
[Chorus]
Wind flows through my distressed crop top
I’m sky high and I don’t want to stop
From fear or for freedom
I’ve my lost grip and
I’m spiraling
I’m flying
I’m crying
Think I broke out the cycle
That bound me
And trapped me
Insanity
Expecting the same again
[Chorus]
Wind flows through your distressed crop top
Your sky high and don’t want to stop
From fear or for freedom
You’ve lost grip and
Your spiraling
Your flying
Your crying
Think you broke out the cycle
That bound you
And trapped you
Insanity
Expecting the same again
[Outro]
I’m going home
Home
Home
Home
Home
Home
Home
But I don’t want to go
Back
inspiration
Written to gaxillic’s “On This Day”. I do not own any rights to “On This Day”.
mood
I’ve got messages I’ve left unreadBut I’ve settled with the things I’ve left unsaid